"Sinner's Lament"

Sinner's Lament

By J. S. Bailey

Copyright 2012

I want to talk but no one's here

There's no one close and no one near

And though I walk and breathe I'm dead

From unseen wounds in heart and head.

My soul is gone, and with it, love

The One who cares dwells up above

Or all around, I cannot see

But God, no one will talk to me.

I'm freaking out, I'm losing touch

It's getting all to be too much

To breathe is torture, life is pain

Life's gonna make me go insane.

I'm sinking, slipping, swallowed up

Why would you make me drink this cup

Of poison! Poison! Cyanide!

Nowhere to run, no place to hide!

They're at my heels, they're coming fast

The monsters make me see the past

Of what was good, of what has been

Of what's now gone due to my sin.

I lay down in the grave I dug

I yearn for touch, for kiss, for hug

Yet none of these will I find here

There's no one close and no one near.

Abandoned! Yes, that ugly word

That's what I said and what you heard

My flesh is dying like my soul

As I expire in this hole.

My vision darkens as I die

The sunlight's fading from the sky

The distant tolling of a bell

Announces my descent to hell.

They say that you once died for me

Reach out your hand and you will see

I beg you, weeping, on my knees

Sweet Jesus, Savior, save me please.